Happy New Year!!! :) :) :)

Phew!!! Finally the New Year has arrived! Even those down-in-the-dumps find something to cheer about the new year.Like something good is sure to happen.Like all the problems in our lives will vanish.Sigh! Its such a deceptive thing,this New Year Day and all the that.Still,one can't escape the optimism it brings.:-D

Looking back,my year had been pretty much topsy-turvy.People came and went.Some friends remained while some said goodbye.Some people cared whenever I cried.Okay,I won't go into poetry again.:-P.

I blogged less,concentrated less,thought more,worried more,and etc etc.So this year,I've vowed that no matter what happens,I'll just love myself for what I am.I guess a clear conscience is the greatest promise one can make to oneself...isn't it?

So the year 2011 will be an exploration to find myself again. :-)

I had been whining to go home for sometime now.And guess what? We've got one week holiday! Hence yours truly is going home....tomorrow! :).See,I told you God is a Cool Guy. :-P

So to put it short,my New Year Resolution is to Stop Whining and Start Breathing! :-)

Hope you all have some New Year Resolutions too! If so,please do share it here.(Maybe your New Year Resolution will remind to add another Resolution to my list :-P)

Keep Smiling....! :-)

Have a HAPPY YEAR ahead! :-) :-) :-)

Having a daughter....

When I have a daughter,
I'll watch her grow,
from a tiny toddler,
to a bashful woman...

She'll resemble her father,
and I'll be proud of that,
I'll surrender to her,
when we have a spat...

She'll tell her problems to me,
but keep favouring her daddy,
I won't mind at all,
she's my daughter,after all...

She'll grow up more,
and I'll worry for her,
she'll laugh at my worries,
but understand me for sure...

I'll make her study,help her achieve,
She'll work hard too,strengthening my belief,
I'll proudly tell she's my daughter,
Such that those boasting of sons will envy her....

When she'll get married and go away,
I'll miss her terribly,but I wont say,
she'll call me daily,with endless queries,
she'll teach me new things,I'll follow what she says,

I'll be proud when she too has a daughter,
whom I'll doubly favour,
it'll all be over,when I'll die peacefully,
but our bond would always remain unique,and that'll make me happy.

Where is MY life headed?

Okay,its official-I am going mad.Semester Exams are going on and my senses have gone on a vacation.Boohoo!


Whats making me mad? Well,just about everything.I don't understand why all the important things that I should've thought when I was free should come and crowd my head now.Its EXAMS time,for God's sake! 


Whats my aim in life? What'll I do?What do I want?What I don't want?What do I like? What do I hate? What kind of a person am I? What kind of a person do I want to be? Why the digital filters in Digital Signal Processing can't filter out my thoughts? What should I do?What I should never do? Friends or love? Do I really need to fall in love at this age? Should I trust my friends? Will they be there for me always? What am I without them? Who am I? Who am I for others?


These are the very FEW questions that are circulating in my head for the past two weeks.Now last exam is on 1st.Already I messed up 3 subjects.One more to go(Total 6 subjects).


I seriously don't know what I am going to do.I know I should not be thinking about the (currently) useless stuffs such as these,but what to do? Mind is swifter than Wind (or something like that).


Already I am depressed that I am not doing my exams well(not all exams actually).On top of that I can't strangle the voice which calls me a loser.That says  I can't do anything worthwhile in life.That calls me a coward.That tells me about my failures.


When will I finally accept myself?! I mean seriously,its high time I stopped blaming myself for everything.And its high time everyone stopped telling me how I am.I know it.Yes,I never stick to one thing,I am too fickle.But at least am not rigid,I can easily mingle with anyone!


Wait a minute,why am I suddenly explaining myself? And for what? For whom? You didn't ask for it,right? Then who is asking these explanations?


Hmm...I am still thinking.Can't help it.


Till then.Ciao
Cheers....:)
Have a happy week ahead


P.S: Don't forget to wish me luck for my last exam.(at least that exam I should write properly :P)
P.P.S: Well I am not really stressed out coz of the exams,I am just stressed out coz of the questions in my head :P

God and Me...Part-4

Are you there?

Are you listening?

Why don't I feel your presence around me?

Are you alive?

Please reply!

After a long,long time,which seemed like a decade,something crashed in my room(that was the window),and God appeared.As always,with a tired look and a frown.

"What happened to you now?Did you mess up your Semester Practicals?" He asked,obviously sarcastic.

"Huh.No.I did OK enough.I was just feeling lonely,so called you."

His eyes widened,and he looked as if he was about to burst ."You think I run a helpline centre to talk to lonely people.That too lonely people like YOU! I have given you enough friends who understand you well.Go and talk to them! I am helping so many others! Humph!!!!"

I looked at Him,anger and sadness making a lethal combination in my head,and all I could manage was,"Fine.Go away.I won't call you again ever."

As soon as I uttered those words,God disappeared and the window was mended by itself too.

A few hours later,He reappeared.This time without breaking the door or window.He stood in front of me,but I hardly cared.Why should I care for people who don't care for me?

"Hmm,I was very stressed that time,thats why said all those things.Now tell me why are you lonely?"

I didn't respond.I didn't feel like responding.He was busy,I was an added burden.Then why....

"You're not a burden my dear.Tell me why you're lonely" He said,surprisingly gentle.

I shot back,"You're reading my thoughts! Then why don't you figure out why I am feeling lonely despite being surrounded by friends?"

He heaved a sigh and sat down near me.Maybe I was being too harsh on Him.

"Look here my dear.What you're going through right now is just a stage when you would want to be alone,but yet be with everybody.You're just trying to find yourself in a crowd,by being away and observing yourself and others.Why are you worrying about it? It'll be fine in a few days.It happens with everybody."

"That doesn't mean you shouldn't care for me."

"I do care for you.A lot! Just because your phone got messed up and your SIM card blocked doesn't mean I don't care.I've told you before too that I give tiny problems just to make you strong.You never understand me! I should be the lonely person here! ".Wow! God is good with drama too! 

"Oh",was all that I could reply in return.

"Am here my child.Talk to me.I am listening.I am always there for everybody",He said,with a gentle,sweet smile.

"Okay,tell me about your Semester Practicals.I saw you were getting a light ticking off for your Power Electronics Lab.What was it about?"

Like a balloon filled with air,I suddenly felt light."Actually what happened was that as I was doing the experiment,the current in the device....."

Something beeped,and I saw that God received a text message on His phone.(Huh,He has a mobile phone too!).

He read the message and I could see He was frowning more and more.

"Am so sorry my dear,I have to leave now.Emergency.A little boy is calling me.He wants to win a running-race.The race is about to begin.I have to hurry.And oh,by the way,I have given you good friends,talk to them,be with them,open up to them!And remember,am always here!Take care!"

With that,he broke open the door and vanished.

His words were ringing in my ears "Am here my child.Talk to me.I am listening.I am always there for everybody".

Yeah right.

Left Alone

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The old railway station in the city stood,

battered and forgotten,

It seemed to be waiting for someone to come,

Or something to happen...

The station wasn't always deserted,

Some came to play,some came for drugs,

But apart from that,nothing else breathed,

Even air seemed to be afraid there.

It hadn't been like this before,

When the city was actually a small town,

When there were people filling up this space,

It was all before the town had grown....

As the town grew up to be a place now everyone knows,

The needs of this adolescent changed,

The loyal station was not needed now,

As the trains won't have a halt there.

A new station,bigger and better,was built,

People welcomed it,and forgot its elder brother,

Which abruptly became empty,like a condemned place,

But still it stood,braving against all weathers...

The trains pass the station,but none stop,

It seems the trains look piteously at the giant,

But the station just stares,it still has hopes,

That someone will come for it,that something will surely happen...

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True love....

It was a winter morning,when I was out for a stroll,
that a miracle happened,and I met this girl.
Nothing unearthly about her,just a simple lady,
but her face,drove me crazy.

What a coincidence,she was my sister's friend,
what a nightmare,she may not even consider me as a friend.
She came home often,but rarely noticed me,
but just one glance of hers,greatly enticed me.

Moving the story forward,I would say we did become friends,
and you do know this,don't you?A boy-girl being just friends for long has never been a trend.
Inseparable we were,though we did have our fights,
but it was all sorted out,before the end of the night.

A particular time of ours,I would like to mention,
when it was her b'day,and we were having a celebration.
I was holding her close,and she looked so stunning,
"can I kiss you?",I couldn't refrain from asking.

She looked up at me,those beautiful eyes having tiny tears,
No,she said,and buried her head in my shoulders.
It was beautiful,we both together,
it was terrible,this moment will soon get over.

The next day,I got the message that she's left,
with her family to someplace else,and here I was,everything bereft.
What was it that took her away,what was it that she never told me?
I may have hurt her,but did I hurt her so badly?

I was angry and sad,I couldn't think,
I was going mad,it seemed I had reached my brink.
I wanted to know,why?,did i not refrain myself? 
Wasn't I loyal?And she'll have to answer all this, herself.

Skipping the part as to how I found her out,but she was now somewhere in a village,
living a life of a saint,till she saw my broken image.
She seemed more pure,more heavenly,more beautiful,
but her presence there still surprised me.

We sat down on a bench,not knowing what to say,
the sun setting down,the sky a wonderful gray,
"I know why you've come,to get your answers,
you deserve them,but its better we go separate ways,as I suffer from aids"

"I was true to you,but long back,I had an accident,
that was when I was given blood that was infected,
I couldn't say no to your love,but I couldn't spoil your life,
now you know the reason,why I cant be your wife."

My world fell apart,not because I wanted her body,
but to think that,she had been through such agony.
"listen here,no matter what,you're mine and I cant let go,
I would still say this,that I want to be with you"

Disbelief and gratitude came as tears in her eyes,
once again she buried her face on my shoulders,
and again I asked,"can I give you a kiss"?
By way of an answer,she lifted her face,and let me tell you,that feel still remains afresh.

Are we raising a generation of Burnt Out Children?

This is my topic for presentation in "Communication Skills Lab" in my college.Here,I have presented my views on the topic as I have understood it.Your views may differ with the topic,and you are free to put forth your own views....(Sorry for the loooooong length!)

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Childhood is the most colourful phase of one’s life. We learn by making mistakes. We grow mature gradually, not abruptly. It’s the carefree time of our life. When we have real hobbies passions and dreams. Sadly, that’s all changing.

In earlier days, life was never controlled by tests, tuitions, exams and such things. Parents had time for their children. Life wasn’t all about getting a job in a big company with a big pay cheque. People pursued what they liked. Intelligence wasn’t counted by which college you got into. Children behaved like children, with thirst for knowledge.

Nowadays childhood has a different meaning altogether. It’s dominated by being the smartest, tuitions, hobby classes, peer pressure and what not. Childhood is now a complicated phase.


The ‘intention’ behind pushing the children hard is to ‘nurture’ them to face the competitive world. Developing talent is not a sin; it will help the child in his future. It is a trickledown effect from the kind of competition experienced for entry into engineering colleges, graduation and others. Today’s world demands ordinary people with extra skills to survive. As Darwin`s theory says-natural selection or in other words survival of the fittest.

The basic needs of childhood are, time to play, place to play and explore the world through his eyes. In the name of competition we are raising fatigued, stressed, and overburdened children with no sound moral values. The stress is resulting into children engaging in all kinds of derogative acts.

Competition is such that today`s world demands good grades in schools, colleges to get a good job to earn their living. Competition is the need of the hour, we can`t deny that but what is worrying is the fact that parents push their children to their limits which makes children’s life tougher. Parents need to understand that everyone has different capabilities. Every individual has a special quality. Instead of encouraging that skill, parents want their children to achieve what they themselves couldn’t achieve.

Today parents don`t have time for their children to listen to them. Teachers demand work within a short period of time. So it makes students life tougher. And then we have tuitions as we need ‘extra skills’ to get through competitive examinations apart from regular classes in school. And what make matters worse are higher expectations from parents and teachers alike. Parents and teachers force students to take part in extracurricular activities which in turn increases load on children. 

In the name of making the Education System more student-friendly, the students are actually made to bear more stress. The teacher-student relationship is now warped. The insecure student’s mind is now more than confused. Bundled up with an emotional dilemma with the pressure of performing well, the students eventually burn out. Their identity is lost.

Instead what the education system should do is train the teachers such that the student-teacher rapport is impeccable. Exams are important, yes. They make you able to face failures. But that does not mean exams should be made such a big issue that students commit suicide when their results don’t meet their parents expectations.

People should also understand that stress management is not a subject that can be taught. Children burdened with such high expectations are also expected to ‘handle’ pressure well enough. But what would an 11 year-old know about what is stress?

Peer pressure has been present since earlier times. But now suddenly it has become an important issue. More so because the peer pressure now is not as healthy as it should be. The only question that arises is: Is being better than your neighbour’s/relative’s/friend’s child would imply that the child in question is intelligent?

Here come the so-called Reality Shows. The reality shows on TV show how much a child has been put through and how broken he/she becomes. That’s another thing that bothers children-the inability to perform, or in other words, the fear of failure. The young and impressionable mind is now also a diffident mind. Parents fight on camera saying their child has been voted out due to favoritism, whereas they should be with their child and telling him or her that it’s okay to fail and should boost their confidence.

It is true that competition is growing day by day but childhood is the age for playing, making friends, etc. Of course, things are changing and CBSE has taken the right step by providing Board exams as optional for students and introducing grading system that may reduce the stress among students. But the main step should be taken by parents by giving their children care and guidance at home. It’s time they open their eyes to see their children yearning for their love. Teachers can make studies more entertaining by taking real life examples and interacting more with students to give them the comfort they want.

It’s not really the children’s fault; after all, they just observe what goes on around them.