A month of exams and goodbyes

April came and went....and with it came the dreaded Semester Exams(which are still going on).But for our seniors,its the end of college life.:(

It was a month of filling slambooks, taking pictures, celebrating a birthday or two,nostalgia about the hostel life,how we all had fun,fights,tears,laughter,advising,watching movies together....it just goes on and on.

I marvel at our Hostel though,how would it react to see a bunch of students vacate at the end of their college life,if it had a voice to speak?Would it cry too?Would it bless them for a bright future?A silly thought...the Hostel building just stands there sternly,even as new students come in,replacing the old.

Okay I am not that emotional....I just feel sad to think how it would all be the next year when we(the 3rd years going to Final year) would say goodbye to our Hostel and Friends....sad indeed!

And the exams aren't doing anything to lift my spirits either....they've been PATHETIC so far.And on top of that there is our recruitment drive next semester.Urrgghhh...do the exams have to be messed up only in this Semester???

Well whatever it is...its my life,and I have to face it...right?So here I am,going on in my life with an uncertain future *Sigh*

Still,that doesn't mean am all sad and gloomy...am still much the same...although I do worry a lot nowadays! :(

Anyways,sparing you from more bore..I'll buzz off for now...enjoying a 15-day holiday between two exams(Yes you read it right...for one exam we've got 15 days leave!).

Cheers....Have a Happy Week Ahead! :)
Keep Smiling!!! :) :) :)

Emotional Fool

Oh,I know you,always crying your heart out,
wanting to burst,wanting to shout,
but you keep a smile on your face for the sake of others,
thinking this the life you deserve....

How many times have you wiped your tears,
for someone who hasn't been sincere,
or those who have insulted you,trampled you,
yet you still care for them too...

You believe everyone is true,
you wish on falling stars too,
but you never realise,
"friends",so glibly tell lies....

The more you try to be good,
you more you doubt for what you stood,
the people,my dear,are just pushing you around,
like they would a helpless hound...

No matter what people tell you,you still listen to them,
you believe it when they tell you you're their gem,
I hope you realise,this world is so cruel,
and you are nothing but an emotional fool

Do we need a Revolution?

The one thing thats resonating lately in the minds of Indians is the stand against corruption.Yes,I have been greatly influenced by it too,as been so many other students of my age group.I do hope the issues for which Anna Hazare is fighting for get full support and the voices for change don't die out soon.

But,on the whole,I feel corruption is not something that we should work on from Top-to-Bottom,rather it works from Bottom-to-Top.From the office peon to the Manager,to the CEO,to the Chairman...corruption has touched everyone.

We speak of revolution now.But it is famously said Public Memory is short-lived always.We see,we make noise,we move on.Thats why the Politicians' don't really care what the people are demanding at what time,because it doesn't really matter-we won't remember it for long.

What really makes a difference is how we change ourselves.If WE pledge to fight corruption in our day-to-day lives,if WE start thinking of India as a country rather than as a group of states,if WE believe we are every bit responsible for our country,if WE build the patriotism in us,then I think half of the problems faced by our country would be solved.

The mindset needs to change,not the Bills or Laws.Maybe its wishful thinking,since our country's corruption level has gone past the point-of-no-return,but at least if we try,we can bring a change thats more long-lasting.

I fully support the India Against Corruption move,but before that I would also like to know which India is being talked about?United or divided? If united,then tell me how is India really united?All five regions of our country are fighting for separate issues!

I can see I am digressing a lot,since there are two issues I am switching back and forth to and not making my point clear.But I do know that yes,inspite of whatever I mentioned about changing one's mindset,we do need a revolution,to drive the point of "need-for-change" into our heads.

Cheers...Have a Happy Week ahead! :)

Why I love CRICKET...

Finally,the Cricket World Cup is ours! After a month of hearing cricket,cricket and cricket all around,I am glad it ended nicely :-)

Personally,I am not very fond of the game(rather,I wasn't).I don't have the patience to watch 50 overs,or worse,those test matches which go on and on(although people say that the Test Matches depict real cricket).Still,when its India playing,I do keep myself updated about the scores and wickets :-)

I am glad I was in my Hostel for this World Cup.Of course there were ego clashes between different groups of girls(one group cheering in Hindi and the other in Tamil),still,the Final Match was something to be seen(in my Hostel,i.e).

Everyone,even the Wardens,cheering "India! India!",as if we're watching the match live in the Stadium(the TV here is pretty small,such that we have to refer to people at the front for the scores :-P).Everyone forgetting the differences and cheering,abusing players who misses a catch,letting out collective "oh no!" when a player gets out,hissing when the camera focuses on the players of the opponent team (:-P),going "oh-so-cute!!" for the young(and even old) players,and just shouting for no reason at all when we see Sachin Tendulkar on screen:-).
And of course...the usual "Expert Advice",even though we don't know much about the game :-P.

Yes,its much more comfortable watching at home-we can see the scores clearly,we can have something to munch in between,and the TV hall here is pretty stuffy and hot.But,even though we were sweating more than the players on screen,and perhaps more worried about the batsmen getting out than their girlfriends,and the excitement of each ball...the feeling is something unexplainable,and joy of celebrating together is simply unmatchable :)

"Hey 4 runs in 12 balls!"
"That Umpire is blind! Its NOT OUT!"
For any bowler of the opponent team who bowls well and takes wickets-"To hell with him! Why did he come to play today!!!!"
For any batsmen of the opponent team scoring well-"Oh God...please make him get Out make him get Out...!!!"

So you see,despite the language differences,despite the ego clashes,and despite the heat and uncomfortable chairs,we still cheered on.It seemed that the whole hostel was down at the TV hall,watching,cheering.

Thats why I love cricket.It unites Indians during the World Cup.And it'll now pitch the same players against one another for the IPL season :-P

Cheers...Have a Happy Week Ahead !!!
:-)

P.S: After the World Cup,now we'll be cheering for the IPL.No prizes for guessing which team we'll support :-P

God And Me....again!

I was sitting alone on a bench one day,brooding over my fight with my best friend.I was so drowned in my thoughts,that I didn't notice that God was standing in front of me.

"Hello?Anyone there?",He asked,bending down to see my face,that was not really much watchable at that moment.

I looked up and said,"Oh,how come you're here,I didn't call you now."

A little ruffled at my statement,He said stiffly "Well,I was passing by,so thought of visiting you.So why there is this storm on your face?"

"Nothing,just had a fight with my friend."

"Oh,is that all?",He grinned,I glared.

"Yes.I said things to her I shouldn't have said"

"Oh,so its your big blabbering mouth again",He guffawed loudly,and I glared even more.

"Okay okay,stop glaring at me,I might melt.Hmm....so what now?Shedding tears or hurling abuses?"

"Hmm...neither.Am just thinking about my behavior."

"You humans are so peculiar....you make mistakes,hurt the other person,and then you repent.But I wonder how many of you really go and say Sorry sincerely !"

"Huh?I do say Sorry...that too sincerely!"

"What about this time?I don't think you've apologised to your friend till now.",He said,sitting down beside me.

"Yeah,I haven't yet.Maybe we'll be all right by tomorrow"

"But it doesn't hurt to say Sorry,my child.You apologise,then leave the decision to the other person whether or not she wants to accept your apology gracefully or reject it unkindly.Saying sorry doesn't really mean you go down one step down,it means you've grown up!"

"Hmm....I know all of that..but still...I only say Sorry all the time.Why should I?When will the other person realise that mistake is their's?"

"Ha ha ha! You're so silly.I have told you,you'll not lose any of your pride...rather your value increases.Try saying sorry to everyone you've hurt...and make their heart melt,and let their blessings reach you",He smiled...and I smiled too.

"All right,I'll go now,hope you and your friend do get back together again,so that you forget Me for sometime :-P."

As He got up,He stepped on my foot accidently.

"Watch out! Can't you see?!!!",I nearly screamed.By then,He had flown away.Huh,He didn't even say SORRY :|

P.S:
Hey people...am back again(Yeah right....my being back implies I'll be absent from the blog for a fortnight :P)
I was busy with the Group Dance thing for the Culturals(Our Department got the 3rd place :P)....so was tired,hopeless,hopeful,energetic,happy,sad,doubtful,confident etc etc at the same time.

And don't worry,as such there is no great problem between me and my best friend....but I was just brooding over how a simple Sorry can halt so many arguments!

After a month!

Its been a month since I blogged last....phew! What happened in this one month?
>My birthday! (12th Feb)
>I'll be dancing in the Cultural Event at my college (Group Dance),hence bunking classes a lot(for practice)!
>I've become very emotional...missing a friend very much :-(
>Thinking a lot these days;nothing much constructive though.:-P
>Missing talking to God;seems He's also angry with me. :-(

Yeah I know,I had promised I won't whine much this year,that I'll find myself again,that I'll love myself.But its too easier to promise,hard to implement!

" There are some silences which you need to hear,
  some tears which you should see in smiles,
  some calls by friend in distress which you need to understand,
  some tremor you should feel beneath a strong voice."

Okay okay...I'll try to be more cheerful and write more Happy posts! :-)

Cheers!
Have a Happy Week Ahead! :-)

Lonely again

In a crowd of people,
one feels alone,
Everything is there,
but yet nothing for own,
A smile cheers a little,
A small talk touches the heart,
but the happiness is brittle,
it doesn't last long,
Something is pushing,
The tears onto the eyes,
but really there is no reason to cry,
one knows this feeling,this loneliness,
and that it wont last long,
but still the heart searches in the crowd,
Something thats one's own.