Sunday, November 28, 2010

Where is MY life headed?

Okay,its official-I am going mad.Semester Exams are going on and my senses have gone on a vacation.Boohoo!


Whats making me mad? Well,just about everything.I don't understand why all the important things that I should've thought when I was free should come and crowd my head now.Its EXAMS time,for God's sake! 


Whats my aim in life? What'll I do?What do I want?What I don't want?What do I like? What do I hate? What kind of a person am I? What kind of a person do I want to be? Why the digital filters in Digital Signal Processing can't filter out my thoughts? What should I do?What I should never do? Friends or love? Do I really need to fall in love at this age? Should I trust my friends? Will they be there for me always? What am I without them? Who am I? Who am I for others?


These are the very FEW questions that are circulating in my head for the past two weeks.Now last exam is on 1st.Already I messed up 3 subjects.One more to go(Total 6 subjects).


I seriously don't know what I am going to do.I know I should not be thinking about the (currently) useless stuffs such as these,but what to do? Mind is swifter than Wind (or something like that).


Already I am depressed that I am not doing my exams well(not all exams actually).On top of that I can't strangle the voice which calls me a loser.That says  I can't do anything worthwhile in life.That calls me a coward.That tells me about my failures.


When will I finally accept myself?! I mean seriously,its high time I stopped blaming myself for everything.And its high time everyone stopped telling me how I am.I know it.Yes,I never stick to one thing,I am too fickle.But at least am not rigid,I can easily mingle with anyone!


Wait a minute,why am I suddenly explaining myself? And for what? For whom? You didn't ask for it,right? Then who is asking these explanations?


Hmm...I am still thinking.Can't help it.


Till then.Ciao
Cheers....:)
Have a happy week ahead


P.S: Don't forget to wish me luck for my last exam.(at least that exam I should write properly :P)
P.P.S: Well I am not really stressed out coz of the exams,I am just stressed out coz of the questions in my head :P

9 comments:

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  2. i reely liked ur post.. this is xaclty hw i was feeling the previous week... i know hw u feel right now... i too screwed up an xaam and a viva... don't wry just focus... u'll do relly well in the last xaam... all the best.. :)

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  3. just chill yaar...I know saare useless ques exam ke time hi mind me aate hain but still try not to concentrate on dat.

    All The Best for ur last exam :)

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  4. Keep awayy from internet... that is what I do when I have to concentrate!

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  5. @An ordinary girl
    Thanx a lot :)

    @aativas
    I kept away from the internet...and my blog all these days ... :(

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  6. dont panic okay..that's only time mgt..you can still do what you want if you do things properly..
    example..alot a specific time for studying and afterwards do what you liek as a reward..it'll motivate you :)

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  7. :)
    I was sleepless for over a week coz of exams and I too had the nearly same thoughts while writing them :)
    Now that we're free we can do anything ;)

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