Adjusting to adjustments

In every relationship, we need adjustments.No person is tailor-made for our nature and personality,because if its so,we would never learn and evolve.But then when does such adjustment become a problem?

They say "Take care of small things and the larger things will be taken care of".That's true.All big troubles begin from a small issue.Sometimes we adjust and don't let the issue become too big.Or sometimes we lose our temper and go on fighting.Something as small as "No,I can't do this work you gave me" can lead to a misunderstanding like "You don't care for me".

Personally,between me and my best friend,such fights happen a lot,inevitably because of me :-D.Yeah I admit,am a bit of a hot-head and immature. It's like I always feel "I do so much for her,she can't even come to the canteen with me".But then,for all the things she has done for me,she has had to bend (I mean metamorphic-ally).She's been there for me whenever (well,almost always) when I needed a friend.When she couldn't be there,God sent me someone else then :-).

I guess life would be simpler if we do try NOT to think.If you think,the problem starts to appear.I am happier now when am not thinking about balancing the equation with my friend.One of the verses from the Bhagwad Gita states that "We should do our work not just for the fruit(of the results)".So,if I stop pondering about who does what in the friendship,and just do whatever is in my capacity as a friend,I'll be happy.Isn't it?

Another point is that we often fail to accept the other person as he/she is.Like my best friend loves to be in a group of people (including me in the group too),while I would rather be alone with the person I like.That doesn't mean I hate the others! So sometimes my best friend abandons the big group to listen to my boring stuffs,while sometimes I join the gang and dance along :).It took me four years to actually accept the fact that my best friend loves being in a group:-D Before that it was always bitter fights and fights and fights....which eventually got sorted out when she would apologise :-D.

Its not just restricted to friendships.Parents adjust a lot for children.Its something that happens by default.If we don't budge for the other person,we're sure to lose him/her.What's wrong in adjusting anyway?If we do feel we're the only one adjusting always then we can gently mention that openly.But then,one should also keep in mind how much the other person is doing for us too.Isn't it?

P.S: College is almost over.Exams from next week.Not even a month left of my college life.And am rewinding the events (and non-events) of the past four years,and my mistakes appear to me in 3D.:-D.*Sigh*

Cheers! Keep smiling (Do have a reason to smile though)

Bidding adieu....

Yesterday,we had our farewell party,conducted by our juniors.Yeah,FAREWELL.Wait a minute,what year is it? 2012! Oh god! I came to college first in 2008.Seems the movie of my life has been set to fast forward and brought to 2012.Exaggeration? Well maybe,but I would still say I am surprised as to how time has flown by.


The earliest things I remember about my college is homesickness.Being away from home in an entirely different environment,I hated my college to the core,wanted to run away,disappear,but not face it.It took sometime before I accepted my fate over here.Then I actually started to love this place.


4 years.Just 4 years.Seems a small time.Seems a long time.So much happened in these four years.I said goodbye to my teens.I learnt not to cry for small things,instead learnt how to make others cry :-D.And yet,it feels I just entered college,and its the same day that my now-best-friend made me cry by asking me about my home :-D.Yeah,those tears of mine forged our friendship....eeeekkkssss! That sounds filmi :-D.

I also learnt to be proud of what I am,instead of lamenting about it.Everybody is unique...so am I :-).Learnt a lot of my own mother tongue, so much that my parents are amazed the way I speak now ;-).


Of course,I did learn some harsh lessons too.But lets not go to those...its a happy-happy post! And anyway,more than sad,I am happy about these four years.I don't want to be sad thinking about the baaaaaddddd things..life is too short to be bemoaning about bad things :)


Then finally,did I actually learn engineering? Well,one of the boys of my class has aptly stated in his facebook status,(well its just a gist of what he meant)
      "I don't know if we did learn engineering,but we did learn all other stuffs about life"


Okay,maybe his context of "all other stuffs" is different from mine..:-D but then,the basic feelings are there. :)


*Sigh* Still no tears from my eyes, yet.Maybe the real feeling hasn't hit me till now.Or maybe my college has also taught me not to cry about things not in my control.(Well thats a bit too much I know,but felt like saying it :-D)


I don't know if I am happy about how I changed from the person I was to what I am now(thanks to my college :-D).But,am happy about my life in these 3 and a half years.(Coz intial half year was spent on cursing this place :-D)


Okay I'll spare you from the infinite loop my post is moving in about the same old feelings of being lost and being found,and just go and do my work.:-D


P.S:
The farewell was awesome! The juniors got the lecturers to speak about the seniors (i.e,us),and they obviously spoke good things about our batch....I suspect they were cajoled to do so :-D.And of course,the photo sessions! Yippeee!!!! Instead of feeling bad about our last day,we,as always,were enjoying ourselves.:-D


Cheers to my batch of engineering degree :)


*God is looking down at me with an amused smile*

Thoughtful and still thinking :)

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference"
-"The road not taken",Robert Frost


For the past few days these words have been buzzing around my head,making a lot of noise.Maybe its because in a month or two my college life will end,so I am trying to rewind the moments of my life just till the time I gave my last exam of school.What if things would've been different?What if I had scored a lot in JEE?What if I had got a better rank in AIEEE?And other entrance exams?What if I had stood my ground and fought with my parents not to send me to Chennai?What if......*Sigh*.Its all useless now,isn't it?Because,much like a woman resignedly accepts loving her husband despite his flaws,I've fallen in love with this city despite trying so stubbornly to hate it:)


But it remains to be seen if the city has loved me back too.I may have to pack my bags and be a gypsy and go wherever work takes me,while this city would still be standing,waiting for another person like me to come.Or would it care?


The words by the poet still keep haunting me.




P.S:
Hello people who are still here reading this :) The year before had been eventful.Setbacks,despair,hope,getting employed(in TCS,campus recruitment),getting sick,feeling positive,feeling grown up(my b'day was on 12th Feb :D)....and well an amalgamation of many other things :)
I am surprised that 4 years have brought out such neat transformations that I didn't even realise when and how I changed.For proof,you can go through few of my initial posts when I first ventured into blogging :)


*Amused smile*.


Cheers...Have a happy weekend!:):):)

A month of exams and goodbyes

April came and went....and with it came the dreaded Semester Exams(which are still going on).But for our seniors,its the end of college life.:(

It was a month of filling slambooks, taking pictures, celebrating a birthday or two,nostalgia about the hostel life,how we all had fun,fights,tears,laughter,advising,watching movies together....it just goes on and on.

I marvel at our Hostel though,how would it react to see a bunch of students vacate at the end of their college life,if it had a voice to speak?Would it cry too?Would it bless them for a bright future?A silly thought...the Hostel building just stands there sternly,even as new students come in,replacing the old.

Okay I am not that emotional....I just feel sad to think how it would all be the next year when we(the 3rd years going to Final year) would say goodbye to our Hostel and Friends....sad indeed!

And the exams aren't doing anything to lift my spirits either....they've been PATHETIC so far.And on top of that there is our recruitment drive next semester.Urrgghhh...do the exams have to be messed up only in this Semester???

Well whatever it is...its my life,and I have to face it...right?So here I am,going on in my life with an uncertain future *Sigh*

Still,that doesn't mean am all sad and gloomy...am still much the same...although I do worry a lot nowadays! :(

Anyways,sparing you from more bore..I'll buzz off for now...enjoying a 15-day holiday between two exams(Yes you read it right...for one exam we've got 15 days leave!).

Cheers....Have a Happy Week Ahead! :)
Keep Smiling!!! :) :) :)

Where is MY life headed?

Okay,its official-I am going mad.Semester Exams are going on and my senses have gone on a vacation.Boohoo!


Whats making me mad? Well,just about everything.I don't understand why all the important things that I should've thought when I was free should come and crowd my head now.Its EXAMS time,for God's sake! 


Whats my aim in life? What'll I do?What do I want?What I don't want?What do I like? What do I hate? What kind of a person am I? What kind of a person do I want to be? Why the digital filters in Digital Signal Processing can't filter out my thoughts? What should I do?What I should never do? Friends or love? Do I really need to fall in love at this age? Should I trust my friends? Will they be there for me always? What am I without them? Who am I? Who am I for others?


These are the very FEW questions that are circulating in my head for the past two weeks.Now last exam is on 1st.Already I messed up 3 subjects.One more to go(Total 6 subjects).


I seriously don't know what I am going to do.I know I should not be thinking about the (currently) useless stuffs such as these,but what to do? Mind is swifter than Wind (or something like that).


Already I am depressed that I am not doing my exams well(not all exams actually).On top of that I can't strangle the voice which calls me a loser.That says  I can't do anything worthwhile in life.That calls me a coward.That tells me about my failures.


When will I finally accept myself?! I mean seriously,its high time I stopped blaming myself for everything.And its high time everyone stopped telling me how I am.I know it.Yes,I never stick to one thing,I am too fickle.But at least am not rigid,I can easily mingle with anyone!


Wait a minute,why am I suddenly explaining myself? And for what? For whom? You didn't ask for it,right? Then who is asking these explanations?


Hmm...I am still thinking.Can't help it.


Till then.Ciao
Cheers....:)
Have a happy week ahead


P.S: Don't forget to wish me luck for my last exam.(at least that exam I should write properly :P)
P.P.S: Well I am not really stressed out coz of the exams,I am just stressed out coz of the questions in my head :P

Brand Tag!...And my experience with a junior...2 in 1

Hey folks! I have been Tagged by Shruti Akka..well heres my tag ...

"Brand Tag - Take any day in your life and chart out the brands you have used"

Cool enough?Hmm.... 

In a normal day....



1.My day starts by the alarm set in my cellphone...Nokia XpressMusic 5220(Red colour).

2.Next comes my College bag....don't know which brand it actually belongs to!:P

3.Next is my wrist-watch....a water-proof one with brown strap and golden dial.(Sonata ki peshkash :P).

4.Hmm....next is...Notebooks perhaps? Hey they are mostly of the "Classmate" brand anyway :P


5.Then comes the Spectacles....again..not any particular brand.But its a frameless one and it has undergone rigorous situations and circumstances (like being squashed under the desk rod,etc etc) and is still going strong.(Touchwood!)

6.After that comes the hero..My laptop.Well not mine actually,its my father's.:P.Its a HP Laptop of I-don't-know series.:P

7.Well,after that comes my evening beverage...a bottle of Badam Milk whose brand is yet unknown to me...but after a long and hungry day in college...it certainly destroys my hunger! Heehee!

Well thats all...

7 brands for a colourful day:)

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I saw the juniors! I saw the juniors!:)

They were the bunch of nervous students...trying to show geththu (Bindaas) attitude in front of their peers.

I had only one interaction with a junior.Not really an interaction actually!

I was climbing the steps upto the fourth floor for my test(Yes last week,we were having cycle tests.Its not over yet by the way.1 more to go).

Suddenly a girl said "Akka"(Didi)

I didn't respond.Because in my home(and amongst all cousins) I am the youngest one.So no one actually ever called me akka or didi .... except at school of course!(that too only after I reached class 12th)

I was startled and I looked up .. only to find that it was a nervous junior who was too scared to ask anything.

Changing my tone to authoritative,I said "Yes?"

She said "Where is the ECE block akka?"

"Oh ECE block is the other building,not this one"

"Thank you akka!"

And she scampered away.

Thats all.

Okay okay I know how you all are feeling.A great description as if I had chatted with a junior for full 3 hours..but it actually turns out like this?

Hmm..but seriously,I felt grand.Really.Honestly.

But still,as far as I have heard,these juniors are not respecting the Seniors...grr! We are 2 and a half semester old ! Even asking them names have lead them to complain to the wardens! Such a ninny!

Well I'll buzz off now...will be back with more such experiences!:)

Have a cheerful weekend!

Keep smiling!

:)

They have come! :)

Yes! The juniors have arrived !!! Yippeee!
Well,what am I excited about? Oh well nothing.Just got a bit senti-menti seeing the tiny juniors in the Auditorium for the Inauguration Function.We were like them too a year back! Heehee!!

Gosh! They'll now come to us and ask
"Akka(Didi),which book should I refer?"
"How do they do the correction of our test papers?"
"Whats a symposium?"
"Do we really have to attend Placement and Training classes?"
"Are the University exams really tough?"
"When will we get holidays?"
"When is fresher's day?"
"When are the culturals?"

Well,we won't rag them of course.(We won't?).Just a hi-hello,where-are-you-from questioning...Oh god no! We won't ask them to sing!Nooooo :D

My so-called "ragging" session in the hostel went something like this:
In our adjacent room we have EEE senior students..so one of 'em called me to their room and asked my name...when I said I came from Haryana..she said spell it....then asked me to spell "Haryana " in reverse order:D...this time I made a mistake and she asked me to sing a song.
I said I don't know tamil songs...then I said "Hey I know a bhajan"

So I sang a tamil bhajan(not exactly a bhajan!)...then she asked me if I knew "Kabhi Kabhi" from "Jaane Tu.."...I said ya Iknow ...(after that she got terrified of my singing and told me to stop).

And the fun part is...she(the akka who "ragged" me) wearing the same locket as i was...so she got a bit senti and she didnt say anything harsh or sarcastic..and she was telling her room-mate(in a mocking manner)"I dont know why,I like this girl"[which meant more ragging sessions].

Of course,after that we became friends (same-department syndrome :D)

So...I am off to get introduced to my juniors if possible.Not rag them,mind it!



And I would like to thank Shruti akka (Hits and Misses) for giving me two blog awards!THANK YOU AKKA!!! :)



And....







Many many many thank you!:) I'll do the passing on in sometime! :P


Have a cheery week ahead! :)

Yipee...I am about to be a senior !!!

Finally...the day arrived when I could proudly (though not without wondering about any possible appearance of any arrears in the first year 2nd sem exams....heehee) write my name and beneath that mention that I am a student of EEE(Electrical and Electronics Engineering) of the 2nd year.

So how it felt to be a "senior"? Well actually,we would be officially seniors only when we get the juniors :P..But still,who cares???

But entering into our department (OUR department!) and facing our core subjects is a bit exciting and a bit scary at the same time. Scary because of the practicals and the subject names themselves (Like Electro-Magnetic Theory,Measurements and Instrumentation,and the best of all...Data Structures and its Analysis {or was it Applications?}).For now,I am feeling so grand and happy and anxious and scared that I do not know whether to laugh or to slap my head in tension...(HeeHee,I guess I'll always be a bit childish....still its good to be that way!)

It has been my dream that I do engineering.Because of a Maths teacher telling other students that "This girl would surely join Arts"(because I always used to fail in Maths in the lower classes in school and do well ONLY in languages!).And mostly because I always saw my father suddenly getting a phone call in the middle of the night saying "Theres a problem in this Control Valve and that Pressure Valve" and he used to rush to the rescue!

Yeah of course,on the other hand,Engineering is one of the most most most common thing that students opt for.I don't need to repeat cliches (Pronounced as Kleeshays,meaning a statement repeated again and again or something like a common saying---Aishu,this is for you) about WHY do people take up engineering.(or do I?)

It seems the Honourable government (Honourable indeed!) is thinking of introducing Medicine and Law in the IITs.That would be a good move I guess,considering the fact that half the population of India slogs to get into the IITs and take up ANY kind of engineering....so now one half of THAT half may try to get into the medical or law courses of the IITs...which would imply that finally a lot more students MAY really want to take up Medicine or Law(?)
Lets see what happens.

I feel like a hypocrite right now.Seriously.I also had slogged(not really,not much,not enough) to get into the IITs but no I wasn't successful.And in the second attempt this year,I had got qualified for the Extended Merit List.But now that there isn't any hope for changing the college,I am again back to the pavillion of calling the ones slogging to get into the IITs as .... boring and uninteresting !!

Its like we are crushing our own ambitions and our own thoughts and what not just to get something materialistic...ain't it? Many people tell me that you haven't seen the real world,that you have always been protected,you don't know about the sacrifices one has to make to be able to survival etc etc etc..but stubborn and idiotic and adamant and ignorant that I am...you might know what my reaction to those statements would be!(HeeHee)

OOPS!(I am not talking about Object Oriented Programming..thats for Computer Science & Engineering waale yaar!!)....See again! I have drifted off the topic again(Oh Anu,you are so considerate to stop the post here!!! Oh god I am so modest!!! hee hee)

Okay,while I go and figure out just what exactly are we supposed to do for deleting an element from a List(arrey...I am talking about an Array!!!) you figure out what you are going to do for making your lives interesting if you land in the wrong job!!!(OR are already in one.)


Adieu

P.S:I am seriously not joking about this...but
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